You have to fail to learn how to improve...

Life is here for us to learn how to improve everyday. We have to take it one step at a time and grow from our imperfections. Although life may not always turn out the way we want it to; we can learn to turn the turns with it and have a smooth ride ahead. Sometimes we get tired and discouraged, we fall down and feel that we can't pick ourselves up, and sometimes we just stop because we don't know what to do. When this happens, the most important thing for us to remember is that the Lord is always there for us. We just have to look to Christ and he will always be willing to help us through. There are many times in my life where I fail to see Gods hand in my life. I fail to remember that he has given me weeknesses and strengths to help and push me to improve. I just need to remember the whole picture instead of looking at just a few puzzle peices. Love can be like that for me too. I want to have the satisfaction of putting a few pieces together without remembering to wait for the whole puzzle to be put together. Don't sacrifice what you truely want for what you want right now. My ultimate goal is to get married in the temple to a worthy preisthood holder. I just need to truely learn to be patient.

Learn that life is service and service is love.

I finally figured out how to add a picture of myself to my page! : D
Today once again has been rather boring so far. I think I'm just tired of doing the same mundane things at work. Yesterday had its ups and downs, for the most part it was great though. I had a terrible day at work but during my lunch break I went and talked to a friend that helped me to relax. I went back to work and finished up some things. Then I went home to comfort my mom because she was also having a bad day. Lately it's been really nice to have my mom around. I know that it doesn't always seem that I appreciate all that she does for me but truely do. Then I made my way over to Walmart. I have tried so hard to avoid that store because I always spend too much money there. But after avoiding it for about a week and a half you have to make a run cause you start to run out of the essential supplies. I literally went in for less than 15 min and spent over 40$ ugggg... lol But after my Walmart run I joined my family at the swimming pool--just to watch cause I really didn't want to get wet. Then around 6 I went to help a family that I'm friends with move. It was a long, hott!! process but we got the majority of it done in about 3 hours. Their kids are so cute and full of energy. I can't wait to have a family of my own...well maybe I can but I look forward to it. After that a friend and I endulged ourselves with some ice cream from the local Alexander's I.C.E. The best ice cream in the town. Afterwards I went back to a friends house and watches the edited Butterfly Effect. It was really good, and the company was good. : D The best part about yesterday though was the I felt good about myself. I learned that love is service and by serving those around you, you truely learn to love. I think that the only hard part about that is when you can only serve so much. Live life to its fullest. Love with all your heart. And Serve to your greatest capacity.

Always wanting....

Why is it that I always want things that I can't or don't have? You would think that because this happens so often in my life that I would realize to just be satisfied with what I already have. But there is something about wanting what you don't have. You can create this goal to obtain it. Lately I have found myself in various situations in which I want or jealously wish that I had something. Now the problem is how do I deal with this?? Do I just keep wishing for it and hope that someday I'll be able to obtain it? Or do I give up altogether? I really don't want to give up...This something means a lot to me and I have grown rather fond if it. In fact there is somewhat of an emotional attachment. But at the same time those around me say that if I attempt to obtain it that I risk allowing myself to get hurt. So now I have to factor into the situation...Do I really want this bad enough to risk getting hurt...But at the same time if I stop reaching for this I'd get hurt anyways. So I vote to continue. Now comes in the other part of the situation. Not knowing if what I want, wants me... I could ask, right, but somewhere inside I think I already know the answer. So now how do I gain enough of a relationship of trust with this to make it see my point of view? -- I fear that there are many other factors that play into this situation but I can't quite go into explaining them for they are too personal. -- Its a lot harder to talk about a situation without actually talking about it than I thought it would be. But hopefully as time continues this little mind and overwhelmed heart will work things out for the best. Till then all I can hope for is comfort from the fact that I have a goal to reach for. As they say "Reach for the moon and hope that you at least catch a star."