Life...why is it so hard sometimes?

Well I have learned that I'm not very good at verbally expressing my thoughts but at the same time I really need to get them out of my head. So as a result I'm trying to use this more. Letting my thoughts out really allows me to concentrate on what's at the top of the mess inside my head. Well to start it all off.....in about 3 weeks I am having a surgery performed in order for me to breath better through my nose. I'm really scared and I don't know how to deal with it. I have also had alot of emotions that I don't know how to handle. I'm sad all the time....even when I'm wrapped in the arms of someone I love dearly. But it's not that what is around me is effecting how I'm feeling it's just me and I don't know how to deal with that. But I guess lots of ppl have problems like I do. Oh well -- I just need to remeber that the Lord knows how to fix all my problems -- I have to let him help me.

Where have I been?

Life has been hectic and I realized after my aunt told me about her
blog that I had forgotten that I even had one. I guess that means that
I don't write in it often enough. Well to catch you up on my life--
I have finished tennis season. I practiced alot with the team every
chance I got but because of my back I haven't played anywhere near what
I use to play like. Sometimes when I play now the muscles in my back
get really sore but hey after you pull muscles it takes a long time for
recovery right? Well I hope they get better before spring season. Until
then I'm taking it kinda easy.
As for school, It is great. I love my classes and I'm learning a
ton. My painting class is going great. I've learned that I have a
talent for it that I didn't always recognize that I had. If you ever
want to see any of my work let me know. I might try to put some
pictures of them up on here. I am also loving Art History. Right now we
are learning about architecture. I love it. Spanish class is alright.
I'm not the best at speaking or writing in a foreign language but I'm
slowly learning. Dance class is my favorite. We are learning the salsa
right now and I'm getting really good at it. I guess I just know how to
move these hips of mine. lol But we have also learned swing , cha cha,
and waltz. It has been a blast and I'm taking the advanced class next
semester. My business class is ok. I'm not really enjoying it but maybe
that is because it's at 7:30 in the morning. But I'm doing alot better
in it than I was at the beginning of the Semester.
My social life is getting better too. I actually have lots of
friends. Not that we really hang out all the time cause my schedule is
hectic but we do get together every once in a while and do fun stuff.
Work is great. Some days it is really hectic and other days I'm
bored out of my mind. lol But over all it has been one of the best
jobs. I can't believe that I've already worked here over a year.
The family is doing great. I try to spend as much time with them as
I can but at the same time I want to enjoy the college life.
Well that is all for now but I'll write again soon--PROMISE.

Love Jess